saturday in chicago

zak and i are in chicago. we had to be at the united center at 5am for the bginning of the american idol audition process. it was thankfully quick and painless. he goes back on monday, again at 5am to perform for the producers. god willing we will then be on the way to los angeles. god willing. god knows how this all turns out and it is so hard to not know ourselves. praying is all i have at this stage and always.